Sooooo,
falling in love with someone when the feeling wasn’t anywhere close to be being
mutual, probably wasn’t one of my smartest moves (d’oh!). I don’t regret the
feeling as being in love is amazing and I've been
lucky enough to experience it three times over (the other two times were
thankfully mutual); and
with spring on the horizon, I couldn't think of a better time to take steps to
move on. A situation which causes more sadness and tears
than happiness and laughter isn't how one should spend a life. I'm really not
sure what life has on store for me, but I'm looking forward to this new
adventure.
Something
else I've found freeing is being cut off. When you're someone like me who apologises far more than you should, having someone remove you from all
existence is indeed incredibly hurtful, but also freeing in a weird way. You can
sometimes find yourself shackled by the way other people view you and perceive
your behaviour; more often than not, their minds are already made up in regards
to your guilt and although you may know in your heart said perception is not at
all accurate, you can't change peoples' minds and you'll exhaust yourself
trying to do so.
I'm
just too old for all that and I can't carry on apologising for things that
never happened. I just have to trust whatever the outcome, is for the best;
continue to be the person I know I am and love and embrace the people around me
who know the real me.
All day long, this!
I’ve always been a bit of a pessimist and I
think I’ll always be more inclined to be more cautious with things, but what
I’ve recently found myself doing is looking on the bright side, turning the
other cheek and carrying on with my life, staying positive. So now that I’ve
finished with my pre spring clean, I’m going to have a lie down and eat some
cake (mmmm, cake).
I hope you guys also have a pre spring
clean. Trust me, it does the world of good!
‘til next time.
Love and hugs,
Isha
xxx
I do believe this cleaning will do good for you! I've done some in my life, and feel better for it. (Not that love stuff with a guy though, as I have no clue about that.. Sigh.)
ReplyDeleteLove you lady! And remember that I'm here if you need me <3
You're so awesome! Thank you my love and yes, I do feel better for writing it down and sharing it with my lovely readers. Love you <3
DeleteAwww when I read this it almost felt like I had written it as you sum up someone that sounds very similar to myself. I've always been a bit pessimistic and I'm always saying sorry and feeling like I'm bothering people. It's a bit the same with blogging. Since I haven't blogged for that long, I feel kind of like I'm pushing in. Never felt like that from other bloggers, but it is in my head. But what I have learned from being a blogger is to be more happy and you have to give and take. And life feels good and it's very positive.
ReplyDeleteI find the same thing too. I am someone who like to talk to everyone and loves meeting new people, so when I feel like I'm not getting anything back it can be incredibly frustrating. I'm trying to learn to let things like that go though because I have a tendency to let things get to me too much. I think it's a good idea to step away from blogging if you're not feeling it. It has to feel right. x
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